I have something to say.
Last November, the 23rd to be exact, I insulted Mystical Trixter, so badly that she left chat.
This ended in me being banned, which resulted in me socking, which resulted in my being blocked.
A few days after my block ended, Alexa unbanned me, which I was very grateful for.
Soon after, we started talking in PMs.
And then, around April, I realized something.
I loved Alexa.
I can't really explain why, but I will try to, at the best of my ability.
Alexa is a wonderful person, probably the most perfect woman I've ever had the luck to meet.
She puts up with my doucheyness, which can't be an easy task. She tells me about what she dislikes about me so that I can try and improve. She sees, that under my douchey outside, I can be a good person. She listens to me about my problems, which there are quite a lot of.
We've had our spats in the past, but those were all caused by me, one of which happened recently.
I feel terrible about the mistakes I've made towards Alexa, because each time one happens, I feel the chances of her ending our friendship, and thus possible romantic relationship as well.
Through all my mistakes however, Alexa has still forgiven me, and I hope she'll forgive me for this mistake as well.
I know I'm not the best of people, so the fact Alexa likes me back, blows my mind, such a perfect person like her liking a douche like me.
She may get emotional at times, but who cares? Everyone gets emotional, even me, my eyes are even getting a bit watery as a type this. It's better to express your emotions, than to hide them, or else no one will be able to help you with your problems.
I really can't find the correct words in this situation, but I feel as though this is a fact that should be known.
Alexa Viola Day, I love you with all my heart, and I hope that you feel the same way.